Gambling.
Good days, bad days. I have no control anymore. Everything is random. Nothing matters, nothing works. The spinning. I don't care what's causing it-- and I think the allergy hypothesis is bullshit.
The FDA is bringing Tysabri back. I know what the risks are. 1 in 500 of PML. I'm ready. I would rather not live than live this way. I don't want my life.
I'll get everything lined up first. Living will/estate stuff is started, but there are some details to be worked on; PML is a horror.
For this to have happened to me? What did I do, what did I do?
The FDA is bringing Tysabri back. I know what the risks are. 1 in 500 of PML. I'm ready. I would rather not live than live this way. I don't want my life.
I'll get everything lined up first. Living will/estate stuff is started, but there are some details to be worked on; PML is a horror.
For this to have happened to me? What did I do, what did I do?
posted by Michele @ 6:24 PM
2 Comments:
At 4:34 PM,
Cutter said…
I'm sorry you're feeling so down.
Just wanted to let you know that someone cares... and hopes that you have better days ahead.
At 3:00 PM,
Michele said…
Thanks, cutter. Most days I just feel so completely, completely alone, ya know? Your words are very kind.
I hope there are better days ahead for all of us.
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