I never said I was a little ray of sunshine.

That last post hurt to write. It took all my energy; the black depression tsunami hits me and I go under.

I still cry my eyes out. I'm alone way, way too much of the time; many of my trusted friends are long gone.

There are a few people I can confide in, but even those relationships--well--I hear the clock ticking.

Okay, ya know, I meant to write something cheerful today and that just ain't happening! So I'm gonna stop. Oh my heck, my kids sure are cute though. That's a happy thought.

I'll have a bowl of granola and watch an episode of Scrubs. Enough of this!